I’m standing in my kitchen. I’m rushing around with pots on the stove and I’m desperately trying to finish my cooking. I’m stressed. I can hear my baby in the background, crying. I can’t see him. “My Dikro (baby), don’t cry. Mummy’s coming with your food. It won’t be long, I promise” I wake up Read More…
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Brothers and Sisters
“Mummy, when is Baby Shayen coming home? I want to play with him – can you go and get him from Jai Jai please?” I looked at Niva. I could feel the tears start to come into my eyes. How could I make her understand something that I didn’t understand myself? Even months after Read More…
A Poem for the New Year
As preparations start to welcome in the New Year, I wanted to reflect and share some of my thoughts. What better way to do this than with a poem! Wishing everyone a very Happy New Year. I hope 2018 brings you peace, love and light.
All I Want For Christmas…. Is You
Every parent who has experienced the loss of a child will have this thought in their head over this festive period. All we want for Christmas is our children. Back with us. Healthy and happy. But sadly, no matter how good we’ve been, Santa cannot make that wish come true. It’s for this reason Read More…
Introducing Shayen Vara
What on earth was he talking about? What did he mean “gone”? What had happened to my baby?? There is no way God would do this to me. To us. Again. Having a baby wasn’t something that had come easy to us. We tried for 2 and a half years before conceiving with Niva. Read More…
Just The Three Of Us
“When Santa got stuck up the chimney, he began to SHOUT. You girls and boys won’t get any toys if you don’t pull me OUT. My beard is black, there’s soot in my sack, my nose is tickley tooooo. When Santa got stuck up the chimmmneeeyyyy… Achoo, Achoo ACHOOOO!” I’m sitting by the pool on Read More…